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.She had to get out of here before she suffocated.“Ally, wait!”And then she was finally moving – away from Callum’s words, away from Jack’s haunted expression, away from everything.CHAPTER 24“Courage is being scared to death… and saddling up anyway.”- John WayneJack couldn’t wait to get out of the hospital.Staring at the ceiling for the past couple of days had just added to the sense of helplessness.He felt surgically removed from the world.Again.While he lay in there, flat on his back, Ally was somewhere out there, refusing to take his calls and ignoring his voicemail messages.Packing his few possessions into the bag Callum had brought in for him, he again thought about what he would say to her when she could finally bring herself to talk to him – if she ever would.Where would he begin? He zipped the bag shut, staring blankly at the linoleum.“You ready?” Callum walked towards him, reaching out for the bag.“Yeah.”He let Callum carry his bag as the orderly arrived with the wheelchair to deliver him safely to the front door of the hospital.The orderly chattered happily as he pushed him towards the reception area, and all he could think about was how it felt to be sitting in a wheelchair, having someone else in control.The ache in his heart magnified.He couldn’t think of a single thing to say as he carefully eased himself into the car and they finally pulled out of the parking lot and headed for Callum’s house.Callum drove in silence, for which he was grateful.His head pounded but he was reluctant to take any medication.Anything that dulled his senses felt like cheating.He deserved this.He had deserved it from day one.It was time to pay the piper.“Have you heard from her?” he asked, his eyes firmly on the road, sunglasses shading them from the harsh light that aggravated his near-constant headache.“No.”His heart sank and he sighed so deeply it felt as if his centre of gravity had fallen.Something akin to altitude sickness settled into his bones.If she wouldn’t talk to him, how was he going to explain? Assuming, of course, that he miraculously found the right words.“Did you call her again?” Callum asked.“She won’t take my calls.”And why should she? He had lied to her.“Do you need anything from your Dad’s place?” Callum asked, as they turned onto the main road back into town.He shook his head sullenly.What he needed most was Ally.The rest of it was just dust in the wind.“Doc said you need to take it easy – no texting, no games and no reading for at least the next few weeks.Are we gonna have any problems with that?”“I’ll cope.”He stared out the window.He hated the idea of the restrictions more than the restrictions themselves.Honestly, any form of visually stimulating exercise seemed to increase his headache so he wasn’t going to waste his breath arguing about it.“I’ve tried calling her too.She won’t pick up.”Jack glanced over as Callum spoke.Even though his attention was on the road, his body language belied his anxiety.His knuckles glowed white where he hung onto the steering wheel, his jaw locked tight as he stared straight ahead.“I know Maggie’s with her, so she’s okay, but I really wish she wasn’t so damn stubborn.”“I’m sorry I got you into this,” Jack mumbled.“I wanted to tell her the truth, but not like this.”“It was my call not to tell her.I screwed up, too.She’s bound to be pissed off but I wish she’d just let us explain.I mean, you weren’t exactly yourself the other day.”Jack stared at the road ahead.The cold, hard truth was he hadn’t been ‘himself’ for four years.The closest he had felt to his old self had been these past few weeks, when he was with Ally.Despite all the changes, when he was with her he felt like anything was possible again.It was a bittersweet realisation, given that he may have now lost that feeling – forever, this time.“Maggie’s pissed at me, too.So is Jane – feels like everyone’s pissed at me right now.”“Welcome to my world.”Callum glanced at him sharply but Jack ignored him, too exhausted to bother modifying his behaviour or apologising for it.They drove the rest of the journey in silence.By the time they got back to Callum’s house, Jack was nearly asleep.The simple act of getting out of the car required a major commitment on his part, and he struggled to keep his eyes open behind his dark sunglasses.His head pounded and his body ached and he couldn’t be bothered fighting either anymore.Callum grabbed his bag from the back seat and carried it inside and again Jack let him, too tired to argue.As he sank down onto the bed in Callum’s guest bedroom, all he could think about was closing his eyes and shutting out the world.Blissfully, Callum understood and left him to it.The last thoughts that floated through his addled brain before he drifted off to sleep were restless ones.When he awoke a couple of hours later, darkness had descended.He lay on the bed and stared at the ceiling, listening to the sounds of the house around him.He could hear Callum in the kitchen, and the faint aroma of cooking food made his stomach rumble.The TV was on in the living room, turned down low.He wondered what Ally was doing, right this minute.He wondered if she would ever speak to him again.He fidgeted, his ribs aching as he tried to get comfortable.Gingerly, he eased over to one side and pushed himself upwards, carefully swinging his legs over the edge of the bed.He dragged a hand down his face, a shallow sigh easing out of him.His body wanted to slouch from exhaustion, but his ribs hurt less when he sat up straight.The smells emanating from the kitchen finally overcame him.He made his way to the bathroom, his full bladder demanding release.As he washed his hands afterwards, he caught sight of his reflection in the mirror and stopped, mid-soap.He was a wreck.His eyes were hollow and one was bright purple with bruising that was only just beginning to fade.The gash on his scalp stung and another on his forehead was held together with a thin strip of tape.There was no doubt though, that the largest wounds were ones that couldn’t be seen [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]