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.I kept telling myself it would be better this way, but I knew that wasn’t true.It wasn’t just the girl.I felt as if my life hung in the balance.Letting Jason have her would be like letting him take my life away.I sat on the edge of the couch, my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands.I looked at my battered boots.The laces were barely holding them together.“So, you dickhead,” he said, “you have to tell me what you did.You smell like food and pussy.Is that why I couldn’t come along? You know I don’t want your sloppy seconds.” He nudged me, laughed, then took another drag off his cigarette.I continued to stare at the floor.I couldn’t tell him the truth.What I’d done with Ash was inappropriate.I couldn’t take it back though, and I didn’t want to.Ash was the girl I’d been looking for, someone who could share in my miserable life, someone who could relate to who and what I was.Yet I knew it was impossible.Maybe I should give up on finding anyone like me, I thought.Start looking for a human and ask the Quatre for permission to make her a partner.I just wish it could be Ash.“Well?” Jason nudged me again.He craved the juicy sex story.He was such a vulgar jerk, yet he had a chance with her and I didn’t.I felt like punching him in his smug little face.If they wound up together I would move away from here.I would have to.It would be like salt on a wound.I knew I should give up any thought of Ash.But right at that moment Jason wanted the story, so I told him:“I went to Dayton and picked up two girls at a goth club.They were staying in a rundown house.I had a three-way with them and drank them dry.I dumped their bodies in two different alleys.That’ll give the police something to do.” I smiled to myself.That would keep Jason’s mind busy.He giggled like a schoolgirl.“You are a twisted bastard.You talk about it the same way humans would talk about going to the store to buy groceries.”“That’s what it is,” I said, “going to the grocery store.”Jason always loved the gory details.I didn’t feel one way or another about them.I wasn’t sure what was worse, me not caring about the people I killed, or him enjoying the recap.“I’m going to take a nap before we open the store,” I said, getting up from the couch.“Yeah I would be tired too if I’d tapped two chicks in one night.Lucky bastard.Wish I had control over peoples’ minds.I would be getting all kinds of ass up in here.” He leaned back into the couch, propping his feet up on the coffee table.I walked to my room, my head lowered to hide my anger.Once I’d shut my bedroom door I leaned back against it, looked at the four-poster bed, then saw my reflection.I was a crazed monster.That is when I realized I could never let Jason have her.He only wanted to get laid.He didn’t care for her, and never would.Jason was incapable of ever having the rooted feelings I had for her.All he saw was a pretty face on an incarnate.He would never want anything deeper than that.I didn’t care about the law.I wanted her, and I would not let her fall into Jason’s hands.I stared at myself, hands trembling, and fingers curled into white knuckled fists.I would do whatever it took.You know the saying: All is fair…Chapter 8EVADING HOPEOn Saturday I woke up early.Jessica had briefed me about what I might need, so I gathered those items I had, putting them in my worn black backpack.Chris came in early.“Hey, I seen you were up early.Ready to go blow up some shit?”I’d forgotten about target practice.“Shit!” I said.“I completely blanked it out, dude.I had something come up last minute.If you’re not busy tomorrow I can go.Jason can come with us.He’s itching to use that horrendous gun.”“Why, what’s up today?” He asked.“Just some stuff.” I answered.“What kind of stuff? Come on man, just blow it off.You can do it later.”Through the open door to the apartment, Jason overheard our conversation.He poked his head out and cried: “It’s a giiirrllll wooooo!”“Shut up jackass!” I snapped.“No one asked you!” I picked up a pen and threw it at his head.He ducked back into the apartment.Chris laughed.I was lucky that he wasn’t paying much attention.With my vampire strength I’d pierced the door with the pen.My sensitive ears caught Jason’s mutterings about how I’d almost killed him.Chris didn’t notice any of it.“Augh man, a girl?” Chris jeered.“Come on, blow her off.She’ll forgive you.If she doesn’t, dump her.You’ll find another.”“No, man.Sorry.I really got to do this,” I said.“You got it for her pretty bad, huh? Well, I hope she can cook.Someone needs to feed your ass.Jason don’t cook for shit, does he?” He was talking in a stage whisper so Jason would hear.Of course, Jason would’ve heard Chris’s slightest breath.“Hey! I can cook!” Jason shouted [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]