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.The whole world thinks I’m a slut!” I buried my face in my hands in shame.The news had to have hit home by now.Everyone thought the worst of me.“I know I have this love hate relationship with Chase, but I’ve never seen you happier than with him.Are you sure you’re okay with this?”“Being away from him is not what’s best for me, but I was given no choice.”“I don’t know, celebrities recover from scandals all the time.There has to be something more to the story.maybe he really is trying to protect you and the baby.”“Maybe…I wish that he could have trusted me to stand by his side.” I stared out at all the twinkling city lights in the distance.Neither of us spoke for a long time, just enjoyed the quiet view.“What are you going to do now?”Just like that, the silence in my head disappeared.I knew exactly what I needed.“Live,” I told her.I wasn’t going to take the coward’s way out this time.This time I was going to fight for myself.I wasn’t going to let anyone bully me, especially people who didn’t know me.An undeniable urge overcame me.I pushed the thought away.I couldn’t do anything but twiddle my thumbs as it pushed harder against me.I stood up, carefully since it was harder to get around with this huge stomach.“I have something that I need to finish,” I told her.After throwing on some clothes, I got in my car and drove across town to Bel Air.As I walked into the elaborate house, I instantly felt safer.This should be home.Nowhere else.I walked inside and made my way to the baby’s room.I sat in the nursery surrounded by all the paint buckets.Chase had wanted me to design it.I didn’t have inspiration before, but I did now.The walls were already painted a medium gray.Without thinking, I grabbed my pencil and tape and began stenciling out the trunk of a tree.Woodsy would be the typical choice for a baby’s room, but I planned on making it more.When I had the outline sketched out, I began painting.On the walls, I created a scene of white bare trees against the gray.While I made the long strokes across the wall, I finally let the tears fall.I cried for myself, I cried for Chase.I cried for our unborn son.I cried for the future I always wanted, but would never have.When I finished, I laid down on the floor to catch my breath.While staring at the ceiling, a scene came to mind.I stood up and climbed up the old metal ladder in the corner of the room.Using blues and yellow, I created a starry night scene on the ceiling.My neck hurt from using the roller, but I quickly finished.The sun was beginning to rise, and even though I’d been up all night painting, I couldn’t stop.When I touched the brushes, the extension of my mind blended into colors.My passion had returned.I wanted to create more.I wanted to sculpt and return back to special effects makeup like I’d originally planned.After searching downstairs for a few minutes, I was able to find a piece of paper and used my pencil to sketch.Picture after picture, I created images from my mind.They had no real purpose, no real meaning.From images of nature to scenes from a horror movie.Whatever came to my mind, I sketched it on paper.Around eight in the morning, my stomach began to ache.It reminded me that I needed to take it easy.Too tired to go back home, I pulled off my dirty clothes and crawled upstairs into the bed that Chase and I were supposed to share.ChaseI turned off the TV and sat in silence on my bed.Chloe’s story had run a few days ago.Her sob story of how I got another girl pregnant behind her back.It was disgusting how she used this story for her own personal gain.I was right though, the studio wasn’t happy about what she had done.They didn’t like the type of negative publicity it was drumming up, and they wanted her to retract the statements.As soon as Quinn’s name had been leaked, I sent Randall out to pick Quinn up.Photographers sat out in my street, trying to get pictures every time I walked outside.I would have to hear them when I left in a few minutes.I picked up my phone and tried my mom again.She was supposed to be on her way into town.We kept missing each other’s calls, but she had left a message telling me she was still flying in on Saturday.That was today.“Hello?”“Mami…” I knew my voice sounded whiny, but what can I say? I’m a mama’s boy.“¿Que rayos esta pasando? My phone is ringing off the hook about you getting some girl pregnant?”“It’s true, but before you say anything, Chloe’s story is fake.”“So you weren’t dating that little blonde pop star?”“No, we were never together; it was always only me and Quinn.”“Good because that girl needs to put on some more clothes.Every time I see her, she is half-naked.”I chuckled slightly, yup that was my mom talking.“The media’s been hounding me all morning.I can’t get a second’s rest; you may want to stay at a hotel instead of here.”“And miss meeting this new girlfriend of yours? Too late, I am in the taxi right now.I’ll be there soon.”“Well, about that.We had to take a break until all of this settles down.”“Chase Crowley! I saw the pictures.She looks pretty far along.I’m very disappointed in you.You don’t abandon your family.¿Ama usted a esta chica? Do you love this girl?”“Yes, Mami.” I loved her, but I didn’t want to be responsible for ruining her life.“Then you stand by her side.I don’t care what some studio says.Your career is nothing without family [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]