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.9% certain that you’re pregnant.Go get it done, then I’ll have Dr.Adams call you with your results in a few hours, since she’s on call today.” She smiled, and patted my back before she went to check on my next patient for me.How.I couldn’t.There was no way.What the hell did she just say?Me pregnant?I felt nauseous all over again.There couldn’t be any possible way that I was pregnant.Then, flashbacks of the last time I was together with Charlie, hit me.In my shower.Without a condom.HOLY SHIT! That would also explain my extreme tiredness, and wanting copious amounts of greasy, fattening foods.I begrudgingly went to the lab to have my blood drawn to see if I have hCG levels present.Remember when I said I was a horrible patient?? Having blood drawn was worse.Much worse.I could give shots and start IV’s all day every day, but to inject a needle into my arm, I almost had to be strapped down for the occasion.I’d seriously rather eat anchovies…Oh those actually sounded good!Leaving the hospital, with not one, but three holes in my arm from where I jerked when the needle was inserted, I decided I couldn’t wait until Dr.Adams called me, I had to know now.I went to the drugstore, and made sure no one was watching me, before I quickly bought and paid for my pregnancy tests.Yes, that would be plural.I thought about getting two, but then what if one was positive and one was negative? So I ended up with three, because that seemed to be the perfect balance.If two of the three were positive, then I’d have my answer.This shit was making my head hurt.An hour and sixteen ounces of apple juice later, I was sitting on my closed toilet with my head in my hands.Resting on the counter next to my sink, was three confirmed positive pregnancy tests.What was I going to do?(Charlie)Maggie hadn’t been taking her usual route this past week.I was beginning to worry about her.She hadn’t been running the distance that she used to, and she often looked sick.Was she still sick over us? After it being over two months, I would think things would be getting better for her.What was I saying? Things weren’t better for me.After hearing her throw the vase of flowers after I left that day, I knew it was time for me to back off.It wouldn’t help matters if I pushed the situation more.Even though she stated that she wasn’t broken, she wasn’t that good at hiding her emotions, I hurt her more than anyone had throughout her entire life.More than the physical and emotional beatings of her parents and brother, that’s what hurt the most.To know that I had caused it.So, I’d been reduced to my stalker like tendencies once again.But I had to make sure that she was keeping safe.And if this was the only way I’d get to see her a few times a week, I would take what I could get.The ache within my chest hadn’t lessened any, so I deserved to watch her from afar and further wallow in my guilt.I selfishly had hoped that by now she would come to me so we could work things out.I know we had enough passion and love to make us work again, I know it would take some time on her part for her to trust me again.I would do anything to get her back.I never once thought that I would ever end up falling so hard for a woman, this just proved that things came to people when you least expected them to.If she never forgave me, at least I would have the memories of us together.I would treasure them until the day that I died.I would never again be able to do many of the things I did before on a normal basis, without thinking of Maggie; eating a sandwich, ice skating, cheesy pick-up lines, even playing my bass and going to Emmy Lou’s.And as much as I hated to say it even watching, “Friends”.I never once liked that show, but since it was Maggie’s favorite I endured it just for her, now I found myself watching it on almost a daily basis.Thinking maybe she would be watching the reruns as well at that certain time, we could be sharing something together again in some weird, twisted kind of way [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]