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.And even then, might they not return at times? Would they not surely return, darling through rents in the ruined netting to drink at that tinkling fountain and nest in the safety of the patio garden, their long concerto ended yet continued beyond its end, as the orchestra plays when the audience is leaving a theater? Playing on and on for the joy of the music, when the last theater-goer has gone home, when the yawning ushers are snuffing the candles and the guttering footlights, when the actors and actresses have washed away their makeup and changed back into the clothing they ordinarily wear, the plain brown skirts and trousers, drab blouses and tunics and coats worn to the theater, worn to work as so many other drab brown garments, as plain as the bulbuls' brown feathers, were worn to work?"But if the birds are sold," Silk continued (actors and actresses, theater and audience, garden, fountain, net, and songbirds all banished from his consciousness), "how are songs to be had? We, who were so rich in songs, are now left poor.It will not help us, as the foreknowing authors point out in the next line, to daub a raven, smearing a black bird with the delicate beauties of the lark or the decent brown of the bulbul.Not enough, even, to gild it like a goldfinch.It is still a raven."He drew a deep breath."Any ignorant man, you see, my children, may find himself in a position of veneration and authority.Suppose, for example, that some uneducated man-let us say an upright and an honorable man, one of you boys in Maytera Marble's class taken from her class and brought up with no further education-were by some chance to be thrust into the office of His Cognizance the Prolocutor.You would eat and sleep in His Cognizance's big palace on the Palatine.You would hold the baculus and wear the jeweled robes, and all the rest of us would kneel for your blessing.But you could not provide us with the wisdom that it would be your duty to supply.You would be a croaking raven daubed with paint, with gaudy colors."While he counted silently to three, Silk stared up at the manteion's dusty rafters, giving the image time to sink into the minds of his audience."I hope that you understand, from what I've said, why your education must continue.And I hope, too, that you also understand that though I took my example from the Chapter, I might just as easily have taken it from common life, speaking of a trader or a merchant, of a chief clerk or a commissioner.You have need of learning, children, in order that the whorl will someday have need of you."Silk paused once more, both hands braced upon the old, cracked stone ambion.The tarnished sunlight that streamed through the lofty window above the wide Sun Street door was perceptibly less brilliant now."Thus the Writings have made it abundantly clear that your palaestra will not be sold-not for taxes, or any other reason.I've heard that there is a rumor that it will be, and that many of you believe it.I repeat, that is not the case."For a moment he basked in their smiles."Now I'll tell you about the meaning that this passage holds for me.It was I who opened the Writings, you see, and so there was a message for me as well as for all of us here.Today, while you were studying, I went to market.There I purchased a fine speaking bird, a night chough, for a private sacrifice-one that I shall make when you have gone home."I've already told you how, when I bought the lambs you enjoyed so much, I hoped that a god, pleased with us, would come to this Window, as gods appeared here in the past And I tried to show you how foolish that was.Another gift, a far greater gift, was given me instead-a gift that all the lambs in the market could not buy.I've said dial I'm not going to tell you about it today, but I will tell you that it wasn't because of my prayers, or the sacrifices, or any other good work of mine that I received it.But receive it I did."Old Maytera Rose coughed, a dry, sceptical sound from the mechanism that had replaced her larynx before Silk had spoken his first word."I knew that I, and I alone, must offer a sacrifice of thanks for dial, though I had already spent all of the money that I had on the lambs.I would like very much to explain to you now that I had some wise plan for dealing with my dilemma-with my problem-but I didn't.Knowing only that a victim was necessary, I dashed off to the market, trusting in the merciful gods.Nor did they fail me.On the way I met a stranger who provided me with the price of an excellent victim, the speaking night chough I told you about earlier, a bird very like a raven."I found out, you see, that birds are not sold for a song.And I was given a sign-such is the generosity of the gracious gods to those who petition them-that a god will indeed come to this Sacred Window when I have made my sacrifice.It may be a long time, as I told Kit, so we must not be impatient.We must have faith, and remember always that the gods have other ways of speaking to us, and that if our Windows have fallen silent, these others have not In omens and dreams and visions, the gods speak to us as they did when our parents and grandparents were young.Whenever we are willing to provide a victim, they speak to us plainly through augury, and the Writings are always here for us, to be consulted in a moment whenever we have need of them.We should be ashamed to say, as some people sometimes do, that in this age we are like boats without rudders."Thunder rumbled through the windows, louder even than the bawlings of the beggars and vendors on Sun Street; the children stirred uneasily at the sound.After leading them in a brief prayer, Silk dismissed them.Already the first hot, heavy drops of the storm were turning the yellow dust to mud beyond the manteion's doors.Children scurried off up or down Sun Street, none lingering this afternoon, as they sometimes did, to gossip or play.The three sibyls had remained inside to assist at his sacrifice.Silk jogged from the manteion back to the manse, pulled on leather sacrificial gauntlets, and took the night chough from its cage.It struck at his eyes like an adder, its long, crimson beak missing by a finger's width.He caught its head in one gauntleted hand, reminding himself grimly that many an augur had been killed by the victim he had intended to sacrifice, that scarcely a year passed without some unlucky augur, somewhere in the city, being gored by a bull or a stag."Don't try that again, you bad bird." He spoke half to himself."Don't you know you'll be accursed forever if you harm me? You'll be stoned to death, and your spirit handed over to devils."The night chough's bill clacked; its wings beat vainly until he trapped its struggling body beneath his left arm [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]