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.There were very few people about, and though the sun was bright, and the air clear and fresh, the big, grim-looking waves, that seemed dark themselves because the foam that topped them was like snow, forced themselves in through the mouth of the harbour, like a bullying man going through a crowd.Somehow I felt glad that Jonathan was not on the sea last night, but on land.But, oh, is he on land or sea? Where is he, and how? I am getting fearfully anxious about him.If I only knew what to do, and could do anything!10 August.--The funeral of the poor sea captain today was most touching.Every boat in the harbour seemed to be there, and the coffin was carried by captains all the way from Tate Hill Pier up to the churchyard.Lucy came with me, and we went early to our old seat, whilst the cortege of boats went up the river to the Viaduct and came down again.We had a lovely view, and saw the procession nearly all the way.The poor fellow was laid to rest near our seat so that we stood on it, when the time came and saw everything.Poor Lucy seemed much upset.She was restless and uneasy all the time, and I cannot but think that her dreaming at night is telling on her.She is quite odd in one thing.She will not admit to me that there is any cause for restlessness, or if there be, she does not understand it herself.There is an additional cause in that poor Mr.Swales was found dead this morning on our seat, his neck being broken.He had evidently, as the doctor said, fallen back in the seat in some sort of fright, for there was a look of fear and horror on his face that the men said made them shudder.Poor dear old man!Lucy is so sweet and sensitive that she feels influences more acutely than other people do.Just now she was quite upset by a little thing which I did not much heed, though I am myself very fond of animals.One of the men who came up here often to look for the boats was followed by his dog.The dog is always with him.They are both quiet persons, and I never saw the man angry, nor heard the dog bark.During the service the dog would not come to its master, who was on the seat with us, but kept a few yards off, barking and howling.Its master spoke to it gently, and then harshly, and then angrily.But it would neither come nor cease to make a noise.It was in a fury, with its eyes savage, and all its hair bristling out like a cat's tail when puss is on the war path.Finally the man too got angry, and jumped down and kicked the dog, and then took it by the scruff of the neck and half dragged and half threw it on the tombstone on which the seat is fixed.The moment it touched the stone the poor thing began to tremble.It did not try to get away, but crouched down, quivering and cowering, and was in such a pitiable state of terror that I tried, though without effect, to comfort it.Lucy was full of pity, too, but she did not attempt to touch the dog, but looked at it in an agonised sort of way.I greatly fear that she is of too super sensitive a nature to go through the world without trouble.She will be dreaming of this tonight, I am sure.The whole agglomeration of things, the ship steered into port by a dead man, his attitude, tied to the wheel with a crucifix and beads, the touching funeral, the dog, now furious and now in terror, will all afford material for her dreams.I think it will be best for her to go to bed tired out physically, so I shall take her for a long walk by the cliffs to Robin Hood's Bay and back.She ought not to have much inclination for sleep-walking then.CHAPTER 8MINA MURRAY'S JOURNALSame day, 11 o'clock P.M.--Oh, but I am tired! If it were not that I had made my diary a duty I should not open it tonight.We had a lovely walk.Lucy, after a while, was in gay spirits, owing, I think, to some dear cows who came nosing towards us in a field close to the lighthouse, and frightened the wits out of us.I believe we forgot everything, except of course, personal fear, and it seemed to wipe the slate clean and give us a fresh start.We had a capital 'severe tea' at Robin Hood's Bay in a sweet little old-fashioned inn, with a bow window right over the seaweed-covered rocks of the strand.I believe we should have shocked the 'New Woman' with our appetites.Men are more tolerant, bless them! Then we walked home with some, or rather many, stoppages to rest, and with our hearts full of a constant dread of wild bulls.Lucy was really tired, and we intended to creep off to bed as soon as we could.The young curate came in, however, and Mrs.Westenra asked him to stay for supper.Lucy and I had both a fight for it with the dusty miller.I know it was a hard fight on my part, and I am quite heroic.I think that some day the bishops must get together and see about breeding up a new class of curates, who don't take supper, no matter how hard they may be pressed to, and who will know when girls are tired.Lucy is asleep and breathing softly.She has more colour in her cheeks than usual, and looks, oh so sweet.If Mr.Holmwood fell in love with her seeing her only in the drawing room, I wonder what he would say if he saw her now.Some of the 'New Women' writers will some day start an idea that men and women should be allowed to see each other asleep before proposing or accepting.But I suppose the 'New Woman' won't condescend in future to accept.She will do the proposing herself.And a nice job she will make of it too! There's some consolation in that.I am so happy tonight, because dear Lucy seems better.I really believe she has turned the corner, and that we are over her troubles with dreaming.I should be quite happy if I only knew if Jonathan.God bless and keep him.11 August.--Diary again.No sleep now, so I may as well write.I am too agitated to sleep.We have had such an adventure, such an agonizing experience.I fell asleep as soon as I had closed my diary.Suddenly I became broad awake, and sat up, with a horrible sense of fear upon me, and of some feeling of emptiness around me.The room was dark, so I could not see Lucy's bed.I stole across and felt for her.The bed was empty.I lit a match and found that she was not in the room.The door was shut, but not locked, as I had left it.I feared to wake her mother, who has been more than usually ill lately, so threw on some clothes and got ready to look for her.As I was leaving the room it struck me that the clothes she wore might give me some clue to her dreaming intention.Dressing-gown would mean house, dress outside.Dressing-gown and dress were both in their places."Thank God," I said to myself, "she cannot be far, as she is only in her nightdress."I ran downstairs and looked in the sitting room.Not there! Then I looked in all the other rooms of the house, with an ever-growing fear chilling my heart.Finally, I came to the hall door and found it open.It was not wide open, but the catch of the lock had not caught.The people of the house are careful to lock the door every night, so I feared that Lucy must have gone out as she was.There was no time to think of what might happen.A vague over-mastering fear obscured all details.I took a big, heavy shawl and ran out.The clock was striking one as I was in the Crescent, and there was not a soul in sight.I ran along the North Terrace, but could see no sign of the white figure which I expected.At the edge of the West Cliff above the pier I looked across the harbour to the East Cliff, in the hope or fear, I don't know which, of seeing Lucy in our favourite seat [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]